This City Is Going To Kill Me

by Various Artists

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    35 Minutes of pure Houston Hardcore. Tracked live at The End on April 2nd and 3rd 2023.

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I don’t think that we quite understand All of the evil that has been inflicted in the minds Of our people Callous sprees of vicious slaughter Televised for viewing pleasure And what is spared in pain and suffering Is exchanged for an agenda Say their names before you pull the trigger Say their names before you take their future There is no denying That we’ve been conditioned to accept this fate of dying Say their names before you pull the trigger Say their names before you take their future
2.
Memento Terrified No longer divine At the core bodies tormented beyond belief, in the ruins of Izalith The Ruins of…. OF… IZALITH THE SCRIPTURES OF IZALITH THE RUINS OF IZALITH
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This song is about struggle, survival, and reclaiming what is yours.
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get out alive why can’t you seek yo self without it then why the fuck u say u bout it don’t look now put that shit down fuckboy cause we have shit to take temptations temptations the fear. the dreams. they’re just screaming in ur head they talk. they fight. just to fuck you till ur dead don’t assume that ur life has been made don’t assume that ur life has been made they'll push you to salvation and skin you like a clown. but they’ll keep u safe they’ll keep u safe they’ll keep u safe they'll keep u safe they’ll keep u safe u should’ve stuck to the basics this world aint sacred itll drive u insane insane makes u wanna shoot urself in the brain in the brain
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LIKE RATS CAUGHT IN TRAPS. 610 HELL, CAN’T GET OUT. WEIGHT OF THE WORLD. PUTRID POUND. OFF LAMAR, CRASHING DOWN. HOUSTON, LIVING HELL. HOUSTON, MY NIGHTMARE. THIS CITY IS GOING TO KILL ME. HOUSTON, NEVER WANNA LEAVE. THE DRUM BEATS LIKE CITY STREETS. IT’LL BEAT ITSELF TO DEATH. JUST LIKE IT DID TO ME. HOUSTON, LIVING HELL. HOUSTON, YOUR NIGHTMARE. THIS CITY IS GOING TO KILL ME. HOUSTON, NEVER WANNA LEAVE. IS THIS HELL OR HOUSTON? WHEN WATER STARTS TO RISE WILL YOU SINK? WILL YOU SWIM? IT AIN’T HOUSTON ANYMORE. BURN IT DOWN AND START AGAIN. BODY HAS GOTTA GO BUT SOUL WON’T EVER LEAVE THIS PLACE THESE FUCKING PEOPLE ARE GONNA BURY ME. THIS CITY’S GONNA BURY ME.
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Take a picture Never been here Don’t wanna be alone Fleeting feeling Cursed with reason Don’t wanna be alone So I’ll waste another day Give everything I have an leave empty So I’ll waste another year Fall in between, fall on deaf ears This city’s got a hole on me
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i can’t feel my face i don’t mean my words once second i’m just here next im on a curb my whole life’s under PRESURE living out of HOME i’m just a fucking slut a photogenic whore i’m always giving less but always need it more my whole life is a CURSE living out of HOME jumping on the tracks im fucking done i’ll just forget reset my mind for the preachers her son is dead of his own weakness a friend to all but a brother to me why the fuck did you have to GO had to get them off me always on the run i used to jump a train and now i just jump a gun wont you please let me GO dumped out a LONE burn my skin with joy to fucking feel again im knocking on the door you never let me in wont you please let me GO dumped out a LONE a deep incision that will never cause me pain you’ve buried me before i jumped out of my plane screaming bloody murder held me closer bloody murder now im screaming CABLE
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“PEASANTS REVOLT” FORCES THOUGHTS CAN’T DECIDE FOR YOURSELF FORCE FED BOOT LICIERS OPEN WIDE STAND STILL ROT IN YOUR SAFE WORLD THAT’S NOT FOR ME MY ANGER STILL BURNS I STILL BURN STAND STILL ROT IN YOUR SAFE WORLD THAT’S NOT FOR ME, MY ANGER STILL BURNS DECAY, DECOMPOSE WASTE AWAY WITH THEIR BOOT ON YOUR THROAT I STILL BURN STAND STILL ROT IN YOUR SAFE WORLD THAT’S NOT FOR ME MY ANGER STILL BURNS DECAY, DECOMPOSE WASTE AWAY WITH THEIR BOOT ON YOUR THROAT THAT’S NOT FOR ME, MY ANGER STILL BURNS I BURN
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intro(by denniz p) I can still hear the sound that their Nikes made splashing through the new wave. So fucking sticky they squeak. Another Pepsi generation. They fill up too fast like the cracks in our social egg. I study the rich sucking dick, drinking paint drips and begging for a plan. Pay attention to the faces as they pan and zoom. They'll choice which door you eventually pass through. A fourth wall will fall. You'll be standing in line. Your body craves the boredom now as a whip cracks against your spine. I can still hear the sound. That their feet made. Splashing through the new wave. the drag(lyrics by ryan t) mid summer pre spring post sinner maddening dark halls deep breath don’t call the dep we got nothing left measure tape tight grasp if you didn’t care then i wouldn’t ask praise paul push p lets just pretend this isn’t happening the drag is a drag its a drag man the kids are unconscious its in gods hands it wasn’t my fault an unplanned plan til death meets tomorrow its a god damned fucking drag fix fuck fight faith tell the nurse not to rescitate feed fear save face back to the barrios just to feel safe the drag is a drag its a drag man the kids are unconscious its in gods hands it wasn’t my fault an unplanned plan til death meets tomorrow its gods damned drag tell the wife tell the kids live on is what it is praise the sun earth and june Praise the cause we consume youre my moon youre my scars Wont get us very far Kids call it a drag Derek calls it a drag NO U N I T Y
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Dont tell me what What to do My body isnt mine It’s controlled by you Leave me be Im a human too Bone and flesh Just like you Say what’s legal That’s my given right If your daughter was raped There no question in sight Talk about what’s godly You don’t have a clue My body isn’t mine Controlled by you Break the chains Take the blame Stop the games Fuck your reign Human right You cannot tame
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Hook/Groove: Ain't nun but a dark fantasy I feel/see your suffering Ain't nun but a dark fantasy hung yo friend from a tree x2 Breakdown: Randomly describing killing someone
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“SNAKE IN THE GRASS” SMALLER THAN YOU THINK WEAKER THAN YOU KNOW SNAKE IN THE GRASS MOVE THROUGH LIFE, HISS AND SNEER EVERY DAY YOU POISON EVERY DAY YOUR END IS NEAR REAR YOUR UGLY HEAD SWALLOW YOURSELF WHOLE OR SLITHER AWAY SNAKE IN THE GRASS
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Stuck in my own mind No way out Choices to make So i choose mistakes Nowhere to feel No comfort has shown My eyes will bleed with the pain that was born turn to my back and i'm looking at a thorn my reality has been torn Happenings These things happen Justify your choices and make them yours Don't find yourself waiting to die slow
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Lyrics redacted by state officials.
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so scared of growing old because i'm so happy about the friends i have right now are so lovely and we are in such good company Passing of time I don’t know What the future does to us We all know It makes me shed bittersweet tears When I think about the future years Say fuck it We’re here right now Make some noise in the void somehow Shout past my mortality And maybe you’ll remember me It won’t be easy but I’ll try To do something before I die
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pressure of living life everyday restrained by these chains theyre not meant for me they try to limit me ive found my solace staring in silence i am my freest condensed to an atom
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Don't got time to be feeling down, I'm tryna get this shit. You better ask about me and my friends, we ain't nothing to fuck with. I'm Superbad Superbad Fuck around and you gonna find out, it's a cold fucking world. It's me versus you, and I don't plan to lose. I'll burn everything fucking bridge
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silence passing angels bleed inside unstitch my mistakes to heal inside (my cursed heart my sick eyes.. pure desire is death) cutting at my fears unsaid what is lost when mirrors haunt my everything? hiding myself in your shadow hollow absence is left in everything

about

This compilation was recorded live at The End on April 2nd and 3rd of 2023. Each band had 20 minutes to record a track live and you’re hearing my favorite takes. Being that this was recorded live, there’s going to be some wrong notes, voice cracks, and off time sections. Some will find this annoying or off putting. Those who don't, understand what this is all about.

"I went to my first DIY hardcore show (Fallcore 2014) after hearing a band called Drown on a compilation called Houston Hardcore Mixtape Vol 1. I was a punk kid with a studded vest and up until that point I had only seen people circle pit and skank at some larger punk shows, so when I saw the arm swinging and spin kicking, I didn’t know what to make of it. In many ways, it scared me but more than anything it made me want to dig deeper into what was happening in hardcore (especially locally). I listened to that compilation obsessively after that. As a young person learning about aggressive music, that record gave me a taste of almost every aspect of hardcore. From straight up punk bands, metalcore, oi, and a lot in between, I was enamored by the sonic diversity and wanted to take in as much as I could. I took extreme solace in this music and the positivity it provided. I don’t feel even a little corny saying this: this music saved my life more than once.

Fast forward to 2023, I can confidently say Houston has one of the most active and diverse scenes in the nation. Since I’ve been involved, I have never seen this many active bands full of young people EVER and I’m extremely proud to call many of these people my friends. I was driving home one night listening to America’s Hardcore Vol 3 and was hit with a wave of inspiration. I knew that this moment and this scene needed to be documented. Not only to show the world what Houston is capable of, but to put our flag in the ground and say: WE WERE THERE, THIS WAS US. And if one young person listens to this and is inspired to be involved, the job is done. Run full speed ahead with the knowledge that YOU CAN DO IT TOO, and I know that you’ll do it better. I’m ready to see your star burn brighter than ours and I will be there waving your flag with you."

If you can’t beat ‘em.
Bide your time.
Demand A Future

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released June 18, 2023

Recorded By Joey Zapata
Mixed and Mastered by Zach Miller
Cover Photo by Ben White
Artwork + Layout by Derek Rathbun
Additional photos by Austen Miranda

Thank you to Joey Molina for providing the space to be loud and Jason Frazier for making the cassette release possible. Much love to those showing love.

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